Monday, June 28, 2004
Monday, June 28, 2004
it's the last day of the hazy june holidays
and i'm really not sure what i've done..as in really done these entire four weeks..let's see.didn't study much..didn't go out much..didn't play much..so what exactly did i do?
i have no idea:)anyway i am just going to stay in this state of amused bewilderment and try not to think about the unhappy things
that has happened today and focus on the happy things!
anyway spent my entire holed up in ivan's little attic today studying hist for that hist paper tommorrow
i have to gush about ivan's room..it's wonderful!
cozy and nice and well planned and perfect for studying
or curling up on a cold rainy day to read or mahjong sessions sleepovers with girlfriends for that matter..
wish i could have a room like that i am so envious
but that wouldn't be possible..
cause i can't sleep alone:(
so i have decided that i am going to revamp my room
after the a levels though..
so at least i'd feel something for my room instead of it merely being a place where i dump my stuff and sleep.
aight i better go sleep then wake up early for some revision
i really don't care anymore. if i fail then so be it.
i've gotta pull myself together i need to get those distinctions for the alevels i've wasted an entire month of june
can't waste anymore time so i have really slog my way through the next two months..can't be all talk and no action!
STUDY HARD DON'T WASTE TIME YOU CAN'T AFFORD NOT TO DO WELL!
okie that's for myself. a reminder so that i'd wake up if i read this sometime days or weeks or months later..
Saturday, June 26, 2004
Saturday, June 26, 2004
arrrhhh two more days to cts and i have finished any subjects
or started studying much subjects and i'm really
starting to go crazy!oh dear oh dear:(
:)had a great time last night even though everything was rushed
and we spent such little time together thanks darling!
besides there's something to keep me smiling all day long now
and it's all rather exciting the thing about secrets is that you get a warm glowy feeling and you are the only one who can smile secretively at you own secret and others can't do the same:) haha
anyway!!!!!!!!spotted several nice cheap tops,pretty sweat shorts
and funky white dress shorts at the new fox store at taka
more stuff to add to my ever growing wishlist think i shall arrange all the stuff on my wish list in the order of desirability
haha with the one i'm dying to have right on top!
okie..just wanted to get all that flustered panic out of my system..gonna go study at serene centre now hope i accomplished what i plan to do today
Friday, June 25, 2004
Friday, June 25, 2004
spent the entire night sourcing skins cause i couldn't load the picture onto photobucket anyway i kinda like this skin besides it's easy to transfer all those html i've accumalated.
the cts are looming ahead and i am really really unprepared!
i'm working myself up into a frenzy
coming up with absurd study plans that would have like one in a gazillion chance of being adhered to........anyway
this week's been full of foiled plans for me..but then our chinatown eggtart tour was better off cancelled.....hankypanky! heh +wink+
saw this three little girls sisters playing some elaborate game involving macs food coupons and waterbottles the other day and i was reminded of my childhood spent with two younger sisters
thinking up our own elaborate charades and games with me pretty much dictating them..we played princesses, kungfu babes, dressing up..hahah no one probably knows what these games are all about
but these are blissful pieces of my life:)with my silly sisters
precious little bits of memories that i can summon at will the next time i fight with my sisters or come close to throttling them
hui i'm sorry! hope you'd never have to wonder how you're ever going to live with a person like me:)
aight it's late gotta finish up econs tommorrow
and lit...and math!
i'm so worried i'm so worried why didn't i get any serious studying done the past three weeks?! arhhhhh!~
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Sunday, June 13, 2004
i am now looking apprehensively at the computer wondering whether it was a good idea to be online and blogging.....besides,
if my notes could gather dust they would be beyond recognition now under an astonishing accumalation of dirt which no amount of gouging could get rid of.
that's because i have i have spent the past three days holed up in a sinful bungalow chalet at safra changi where time passed in languidity swimming and tanning and eating a whole DAMN....spectrum..of food.
unhealthy salt and vinegar lays to healthy rabbit food greens mushroom steamboat.
haha then when i finally got back from paradise safra i found myself whisked into another paradise
you..
anyway..it is worth any amount of slogging for the next two remaining june holiday weeks to make up for this chunk of blissful indulgence:) god knows i've spent it with those people who
matter..yu know who yu are!
think endless discussions of future plans!
meeting your 2yrs older lifemate in uni getting married with 2 kids a.k.a
boring life..heh:)
think mad dash up 65 getting the perfect upperdeck seat
then proudly discussing seat-accquiring tactics and basking in my own cleverness haha minli the aunty!
play's over i'm hitting the books i'm so blissful now
i have everything i ask for.
...
well except for a slimmer body........RARGH.
Friday, June 04, 2004
Friday, June 04, 2004
it's been intensive mind boggling hairtearing math remedials at 9 am every single day of this entire long week. i'm proud to announce that i don't jump off cliffs anymore when i look at anything remotely math.
oh i had my timetable planned out with azi's help everyday's packed to the max and it's a tight fit, but if i stick to the plan i might just ace the CTs. seriously. but that's
if i stick to the damn thing.
there's nothing more worrying now than the fact that i have no idea what i'm gonna do after the a's! there's a million questions racing through my brain erupting faster than a pregnant volcano and i can't keep track of it all...like whether i can get a scholarship
what scholarships are available to me..will i be able to get an oversea one? what should i expect? what are the universities available to me? will it be too late to take sats after the a's?
i'm scared so scared. i now understand what it means to be totally clueless and how small and lost yu can feel just because yu don't
know. but i'm gonna rectify that i'll find some way to accquire this knowledge everyone else seems to have ingrained in their systems.
ugly scar on the hand balloning figure budget deficiency ARGH
feeling so envious of everyone around me. they all
belong. how do one put this to words? the feeling of not-quite-loneliness? to want an emotional link to ground myself and yet not want the...baggage..that comes with it all?messy messy. i want to pretend..just ignore this puddle muddle mish mash but heeeeyyy the trick is not to ignore what yu feel!it's to acknowledge it and then bloody hell live with it..dumdeedeedum.
okie doks. on the bright side..there's an arrival (
yu:]) to look forward to..harry potter 3 (however childish)..raffles hotel buffet(think prawns prawns!)..not to mention a helluva study plan to keep up with. hopefully there's time for shopping cause there's so much stuff i want to acquire. retail therapy really works. all the unhappy girls out there..
trust me buying stuff generates felicity contributes to yur well-being..my motto: the more stuff yu own the more secure yu feel!
then again i have NEVER been known for doling out good advice.
aight it's crunches leg lifts time......
afterthought:
i miss those closest wonderfulest friends who were so close for a precious while then somehow drifted out of my life...
I WANT YU BACK! don't wanna lose anymore treasures. god knows i've lost a thousand diamond mines when yu went away..