Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Tuesday, September 19, 2006

childish right? i know..
haha everyone probably did this in their sec sch days but ernest and i only discovered it at 20
for those of you who dont know what this is, it's one of those neoprint machines that take your photo
but the neoprints come out in the form of a drawing, i have yet to frame this
ernest thinks i should just save money and LAMINATE. hurhur what a dumbo.

i love my team realllyyyyy...but this sem we're missing faces.
it's still fun though most of us are still playing and still together,
but those faces missed hits me hard..
with a particular bitchy newcomer in our team it is even tougher for me to
let go of last sem's team and our fond memories.
i have always said, i play for the team,
but this mother****** makes it really tough for me
to look forward to trainings, the way i used to.
Monday, September 11, 2006
Monday, September 11, 2006
i haven't seen you in two weeks. it seems like forever.
somehow we're drifting. i am worried.
neerrrrrsssseeeeee.
on a lighter note, we had tons of fun today. i'm sort of relieved i decided to give ibg a miss.
hui we HAD SAMSUI ginger chicken at soup restaurant for a snack. hurhur.
finally got the much coveted album from Jon Lau....
LEFTOVER ROCKS.
everyone who hasn't bought their album, BUY IT.
Leftover's EP Extended Play is candy for your ears.
www.leftovermusic.com
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Thursday, September 07, 2006
you know something? i dont hate you, i do not despise you, and try as i might i am not bothered by what you do to me. because you see, next time, when i meet you on the streets, or just see you anywhere at all, i wouldn't cringe, or feel like i did you wrong.
YOU, on the other hand, would probably quake in your slippers, fats jiggling and all. at that very instant, i would walk up to you and tell you in the nicest possible way that what you did/do in every way probably harmed the only brother you had.
for that very reason, i do admit that for a while i wanted to make sure i get back at you, whether at bball, or just telling everybody i know (and i know LOTS OF PEOPLE) about what you did, what you really are...
but then i am better than that. anyway your brother pleaded with me for you; he loves you still that soft-hearted boy.
tough times are ahead. i will make it through the rain though. will stand up once again.
on my own. and by then i'll be strong enough again.
Friday, September 01, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
so sarah left yet again, this time back to wisconsin.
ta's hiding something from me, but i do hope i find out sooner or later.
i was telling ernest the other day about how happy and content i am these days.
happy and content, happy and content...
seems like i was sick of depressed,
and am now trying my hand at ' happy and content' instead.
what are emotions but empty feelings?
i am a gaping hole, with rows and rows of teeth, gorging myself and tearing at all succulent emotions, and no matter how fast i feed myself, they all disappear into my gaping hole and i am left empty.
i am a most feeling creature.
while others turn to drugs for illusions and epiphanies (however warped?) and are addicted to the thrill of the flitting emotions sensations, i have no need for these.
i see illusions everywhere i look, feel emotions and sensations thousandthfold by the heartbeat.
i am addicted to emotoional rollercoaster rides.
rides where only i can bring myself up and down, over and under until my head spins and i shudder
i get off the good times wanting more
bad times yearning the good
but it almost always end up bad
you do know there's no escape from this emptiness.
that looms in the peripheral of my little carnival,
a big gaping slow-moving ferris wheel, whose monotony lures and threatens to suck me in.
oh the sweetness and bitterness of it all.
when was the last time you smiled or laughed at yourself?
when was the last time you sat down to look at yourself, beyond the mirror into the person inside?
when will we all cut to the chase and finally be absolutely comfortable with who we are, or to finally face up to what we are?
the question is, when will my turn come?