Friday, December 31, 2004
Friday, December 31, 2004
time flies and i don't just mean the months and weeks of the holidays.
hours gush ike minutes and minutes flow like seconds and seconds drip like nano seconds or something
anyway spent the entire morning just writing cvs sending and faxing in hopes of getting a job i like. right now however the prospects aren't looking good but it's alright it's new year's eve! can't be grumpy on new year's eve right
the esplanade new year's eve fireworks are cancelled this year in respect for disaster victims and i'm really glad they did so. it would have been really wasteful and opulent to be spending a huge amount of money on useless fireworks when the money can be better used helping those victims. and even more wasteful and opulent for safe and unscathed singaporeans to be bothering about a countdown party when people are mounring the deaths of loved ones all around us. so it's just as well they cancelled the rave live telecast from sentosa on channel five
by the way sorry dar about our foiled sentosa/hotel/chalet plans for new year's eve we're so indecisive we always end up not doing what we planned to do:)but it's ok gotta keep it less wild this year anyway. a nice cosy dinner and chilling out my bestest best friends at chjimes sounds yummilicious to me, this year we'd have time to talk and laugh instead of shout and yell like we always do at those countdown parties:)
new year's resolution:
to give it my all
one thing i regret horribly this year was to not give my all for the a's and it just feels horrible to know you didn't do your best so i'm making sure this never happens to me again
currently reading
Oscar Wilde's Oscariana
to love oneself isthe beginning of a life-long romance.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i feel like i am at peace with myself now
suddenly feel a sense of elation:) like whatever comes won't get me down
i won't soil this feeling worrying about whether this feeling would last. i just want to sustain this feeling.
to those out there who have regrets and doubts go ahead step right out and confront it and i invite you to feel thus sense of elation with me
hope this doesn't sound corny..but when you have done as i done you'd feel as i feel and reallyy....
come fly with me.
currently listening to
Micheal Jackson's Ben
merry christmas!
i hope everyone had a fantabulous happy laughterfilled christmas
a christmas full of presents and old fashioned family fun and that warm glowly fireplace sort of quality that christmas this year for me seems to lack
instead of those usual adjectives to describe christmas for other people: cosy fun FOOD FOOD and FOOD and PARTIES
my christmas can be summarised in about....one word
which i've made up: bad-luck-ish
there's no food except that free buttercookies that came with the creamcrackers my mother bought and the ruffles cheese and sourcream chips and red apple chips and this humongous bar of hazelnut milk chocolate and dark bitter chocolate and that seafood dinner and that yummylicious ikea swedish meatballs and one dollar twenty hotdogs and dove armecelli and...oh that's quite alot of food. hmmm.
but still christmas this year WAS badluckish food aside that is
our family trip to YP to eat MJK (haha have fun figuring out the acronyms) was foiled by the last minute breakdown of our faithful family four-wheel. i don't blame her really( we refer to our car as 'her')she's really very accomodating most of the time, but i guess this time the idea of carting my fat bottom, along with four other fat bottoms and a whole lot of baggage to YP is more than she can bear. so she protested and refused to get into first gear....or something like that daddy says.
is that badluckish or what.i have been dreaming about that MJK for quite long ok. like two weeks or so.argh have you ever craved for something and no other type of that something can do..you want nothing but that specific exact something and you just feel like having that something now but there's no way to get that something and it is just frustrating. haha that's the story of MJK and me.
oh well i'm quite tired of typing already there's more badluckish stories i could tell but i guess i'm the sort who digresses lilke hell so i better not continue
but i'd lilke to think our stroke..no STROKES of badluck this christmas are blessings in disguise...how can not getting to eat my MJK be a blessing in disguise i really don't know....but..BUT i choose to believe it so:)and anyway though christmas didn't run that smoothly this year i am just glad i have my family and friends with me.
and since i didn't get much christmas presents i feel i am entitled to a christmas wish..right santa?
so here's to health and happiness to my family and friends i love them all.
and good A level results:)
heh
Friday, December 17, 2004
Friday, December 17, 2004
it seems like eons ago the last time i held a pen in my hand and the sensation of holding my stiff fingers such that they write is so foreign that i almost forgot how my handwriting looked like
out of the nine items in my post a level checklist, i am ashamed to say, i have only crossed out three and they were the easy ones, like :
sign up for driving basic theory test
organise room
begin golf lessons
the other six tough ones like
LOSE WEIGHT
DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL ( like com service)
RENOVATE ROOM
remain unchecked items and at the rate i am going slugging my holidays away drowning in chocolates tv and books i probably could not, and would not get them done, even if i had a million years to spare
so i have added a tenth item to my list and i am really proud of it
COMPLETE YOUR CHECKLIST
is the tenth item so now instead of having six more items to slog through, i only have ONE. hurhur:)
as i sat there chortling to myself at my own cleverness i suddenly remember that i made a new-year-resolutions list this year.
the list went something like:
1)study consistently
2)lose weight
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.
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10)resolve your resolutions..
or something along those lines.......and needless to say i DID NOT stick to my new year resolutions...hmmm.
anyway here's a wonderful absolutely hilarious caption out of dickens's David Copperfield which is my current favourite read:
I don't know how i did it. I did it in a moment. I intercepted Jip. I had Dora in my arms. i was full of eloquence. I never stopped for a word. i told her how i loved her. i told her i should die without her. i told her that i idolised and worshipped her. Jip barked madly all the time.
when Dora hung her head and cried, and trembled, my eloquence increased so much the more. if she would like me to die for her, she had but to say the word, and i was ready. (hurhur this is the funny part) life without Dora's love was not a thing to have on any terms. i couldn't bear it and i wouldn't. i had loved her at that minute to distraction. (k here goes the part that had me dissolve in helpless giggles)
lovers had loved before and lovers would love again; but no lover had ever loved, might, could, would, or should ever love, as i loved dora. the more i raved the more jip barked. Each of us, in his own way, got more mad every moment.
i don't know why but i thought this really funny wouldn't stop laughing to myself in the bus i think i shocked the woman sitting next to me.
it is just that the melodramatic way dickens potrayed the absurdity of david's affection, or should i say infatuation, with the nonsensical Dora as love from david's point of view really tickles me...
oh anyway here's a reminder to myself: CHRISTMAS WISHLIST and CHRISTMAS PREZZIES
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Thursday, December 02, 2004
i think i'm too naive when i said i would write all the law firms of singapore so i could get a holiday job doing something law related. finally started my research today and a few clicks later i realised the naviety and ignorance of it all.
there is an impressive number of law firms and joint law ventures and they all are stronger in certain areas of litigation so there i was at www.legal500.com ploughing through the mountainous amount of data about how Drew&Napier LLC advised some $1.1 billion deal between so and so company and how Allen&Overy Shooklin&Bok and Linklaters Allen&Gledhill are two of the better JLVs you'd find in singapore and a whole litany of achievements.
i am exhuasted. and it isn't even half of all the information. besides fter i plough through all that i still have to visit the individual websites of the firms and try to find some avenue through which i could wriggle my way into a job...
hell i want to work for free and this is tough and i think i'm crazy to think it easy anddd....i'm rambling!
aight basically i'm INSANE to have even for a second considered this whole undertaking a simple task
be cause IT IS NOT!
i am hungry.
to all the people in the world who are born skinny and stay slim no matter what you ingest:
stay out of my life!
i do not want to see you sashaying down orchard i do not want to see your photos plastered on advertisements i do not want to hear about how you need to diet because you don't NEED to diet and if i have to assure you one more time that you're not fat i swear i'll strangle myself.
haha there i've got it out of my system..
and i'm still hungry
so excuse me i have to go convince my appetite that it doesn't exsist and that i love researching for my holiday law firm job...which i do by the way..
only it
is a rather daunting task.